"You get what you deserve."
How many times have you heard this or some variation of it? If you're like me, you've heard it more times than you want to count. On the one hand, it's reassuring.
If I have lived a charactered, principled, generous life, I will get my just reward. On the other hand, it's downright terrifying. What about the times (and there have been many) when I wasn't charactered, principled, or generous? I'll get my just reward for those actions as well.
So why can't I structure my life--my thoughts, my words, my behavior--in accordance to the reward I say I want to earn? Maybe I don't really want to earn that reward, that of eternal life with the Father and His Son, after all. Maybe I am content in my sins. And here's the horrible realization I had to face: sometimes I like my sins. I treausre them. I wallow in them.
I'm back to the downright terrifying realization that I will, indeed, get my just reward.
So, for today, I am grateful for the opportunity to change. Now I just have to want to.