Saturday, September 10, 2011

Day 253, September 10

I've confessed before that I'm not a fancy person. My house is decorated with garage sale finds. My clothes also come from garage sales. I get my hair cut at a barbershop rather than a salon, and when I wear makeup, it is usually that which my sister has given me.
I admire those individuals who decorate their houses just so and dress just so even as I recognize I will never be that way. Don't we often admire those qualities in others that we don't possess? I wonder why that is so. Why don't we appreciate what we do have?
These reflections are not new, certainly not unique with me. It's human nature, I suppose, to want to be what we're not. I wonder what the Father thinks when I am less than satisfied with what I am, what I have, and I fear He's probably disappointed in me. Does He see my dissatisfaction as a lack of gratitude?
I've been blogging for over eight months now in an effort to remind myself, to remind all of us, to be grateful, and I'm still trying to get it right. As much as I try, I find myself wanting more--wanting to be more, wanting to be better, wanting to be something I'm not. It's not wrong to want to be better, but I believe it is wrong to fail to acknowledge what we already are and have.
So, for today, I am grateful for what the Father has made me and pray that He will continue to work on me.

1 comment:

  1. Well, don't envy me. I cut my husband's hair and he cuts mine. He likes my hair long, can you tell?

    But, to be grateful. . .

    We both have hair to cut. We are both willing to do that for each other. Our friends are nice enough not to point out when we have a bad haircut, or that our hairstyles haven't changed in years.

    Yes, we all want to be better. That is good and right. We just get confused between "better", and "new and different", or even "shallow, but glamorized".