I've confessed before that I'm not a fancy person. My house is decorated with garage sale finds. My clothes also come from garage sales. I get my hair cut at a barbershop rather than a salon, and when I wear makeup, it is usually that which my sister has given me.
I admire those individuals who decorate their houses just so and dress just so even as I recognize I will never be that way. Don't we often admire those qualities in others that we don't possess? I wonder why that is so. Why don't we appreciate what we do have?
These reflections are not new, certainly not unique with me. It's human nature, I suppose, to want to be what we're not. I wonder what the Father thinks when I am less than satisfied with what I am, what I have, and I fear He's probably disappointed in me. Does He see my dissatisfaction as a lack of gratitude?
I've been blogging for over eight months now in an effort to remind myself, to remind all of us, to be grateful, and I'm still trying to get it right. As much as I try, I find myself wanting more--wanting to be more, wanting to be better, wanting to be something I'm not. It's not wrong to want to be better, but I believe it is wrong to fail to acknowledge what we already are and have.
So, for today, I am grateful for what the Father has made me and pray that He will continue to work on me.