Do you ever feel that you will never "have it all together?" That you are always "a day late and a dollar short?" I do. I frequently feel that I don't measure up to what my family, my friends, and the Lord want me to do, to be.
It is a daunting feeling. More, it is a self-destructive one. I'm so busy trying to find what I'm supposed to be doing, supposed to be giving, that I forget just to be me. Maybe that's part of the reason why I suffer from depression: I am always finding ways that I am falling short. (And sometimes others point those ways out to me.)
The truth is, I do fall short in many of my efforts and endeavors. I know I've let others down. It hurts when I acknowledge that. It hurts when I acknowledge that I've let the Lord down.
This I know for sure: the Lord is on my side, even when I don't measure up, especially when I don't measure up.
I, too, suffer from fallshort-its. Maybe we should start a support group? From my perspective, it would be a short meeting. The only thing that works is the Atonement. Without that, I cannot find hope. With that, I can find unfailing hope.
ReplyDeleteWhy yes, all the time. I want to have it all together, to get out in front of it as Frankie Heck would say, but I fall short nearly every day.
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