Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Day 284, October 11

Yesterday I wrote about fasting and listening to the Spirit. I wish I could say that I always listened to the Spirit. I wish I could say that I always obeyed the Spirit. I wisih I could say that I always live in such a manner that the Spirit can reach me.
Unfortunately, I am weak and willful. I want my own way and am frequently fairly insistent upon getting it. (Ask my husband.)
Upon one occasion, though, I did listen to the Spirit. I've written of this experience before, so please bear with me as I share it with you again. Last December, I was in a dark place, so dark that I did not believe I would ever emerge into the light again.
I cried out to my Father in Heaven, asking for His succor. (I was on a plane and so did this silently in my heart.) As I've related before, He told me to be grateful. I didn't want to be grateful. I had nothing to be grateful for (or so I beleived at that moment). Still, the Father, through the Spirit, instructed me to be grateful and then to write about it. Thus was this blog born.
I've struggled in writing this blog. I've struggled with technical things with blogger. I've struggled with finding the words to say what was in my heart. I've even struggled with my own heart, which can be a stubborn and hard vessel at times, finding gratitude when I didn't feel grateful.
My blog has reached few people. It has not "gone viral." The number of followers is modest, and, in fact, one follower dropped out. Still, I persist. When the Spirit speaks so plainly, I could not defy it.
So, for today, I am grateful for the whisperings of the Spirit.


  1. The Savior knew that whether or not the ninety and nine appreciated it, it was good and right to reach the one.

    It took quite a bit of time for His message to go viral. In fact, were still working on that.

    He had a few followers drop out as well.

    Besides, the year is almost over. As I told my son after his football game on Saturday which was played in the most miserable cold rain I ever hope to endure, "It's not whether you win or lose, it's how fast you can get to the van once the game is over!"

  2. I echo Deliese's sentiments. I'm proud of you for continuing with this blog. It's been very much appreciated.

  3. And if you touched only one person on one day, it was worth it. You did that and much more.