Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Day 71, March 12


Spring is almost upon us.  The ground is warming up, quickly melting any lingering snow and ice.  Shoots of green are poking their heads through the up-to-now frozen soil. 

That is the good news.  The less-so-good news is that with spring, come demands.  Be upbeat, we're told.  Be energetic.  Clean your house (for many, spring cleaning is a set-in-stone mandate).   Being of a rebellious nature, I am tempted to defy these strictures.  I'll be upbeat when I want to, I want to shout.  And as for energetic?  Forget it.  Any energy I ever had was sucked away three children and twenty or so years ago.  Clean my house?  No way will I clean it in spring.  I'll clean it any other season, but I won't be trapped into spring cleaning.

What does this say about me?  Rebellious, certainly.  Stubborn, definitely.   And that I like to march to the beat of my own drummer.   My internal drummer tells me that I don't have to listen to anyone's voice but mine ... and God's.  I figure that's enough. 

So, if I'm not upbeat, energetic, and possessed of a cleaning frenzy in spring, what do I do?  I go to garage sales.   I start a new writing project that I have no intention of finishing, but I have to get those voices out of my head.  I talk to myself on my morning walks.

So, for today, I am grateful for my internal drummer, even when it's off beat from the world's.

2 comments:

  1. This post totally made me crack up. And I suppose we all have a bit of an internal drummer that is off beat at times.

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  2. My internal drummer can't even keep the beat with himself! I flit from one impulse and passion to the next, trying to ignore the guilt that comes with not sticking with things. (Chocolate does wonders with that. And I don't have any trouble sticking with chocolate.)

    As for a clean house: Cleaning your house while the kids are still growing is like shoveling snow while it's still snowing. Since the weather changes from warm to snowy so quickly in Colorado, why should anyone engage in spring cleaning? Why not wait until summer when the ground is dry and we quit tracking mud into the house?

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